It has changed sooo much I'm not the same person I use to be.  Thankful to this site and a few others that keep it real and keep it positive.  In another 5 years I expect I'll have grown even more... *woot*woot

Babe--Are you rockin' it....shining your light on the world today...sharing the YOU I see?

In one area--Walking around in a mist of confusion, pain & suffering--the proverbial cycle of abuse.  Wanting desperately to "believe in him" still, showing him that I still had faith & trust---whilst all the sign posts were saying "Don't buy into it".  Denial is very powerful & cunning when you don't realize that's what you are playing with or in.  Thankfully, I had a great friend whom shared with me a valuable nugget of truth.....
"Circumstances don't make a man....they reveal him" and that it was time for me to recognize the sign posts & "the reflection of HIS character traits". 

In another, from losing a second grandparent within a year....I was grieving yet keenly aware of "presence".  For the 10th time in a matter of 5 years--I was embracing "life beyond form". Ten significant people in my life--or my children's lives--on this plain-- were gone....some by their own choice to isolate.  I started hearing a lot about "The power of Now"--and so thankful Eckhart Tolle brought forth his learning/teaching when he did. I started doing Yoga-and dancing again....with guidance of my doctor--HE and his team are amazing-I went off Lexapro--and finally was able to sleep through the night peacefully.  :)  I don't miss the insanity!   

First thing this morning I'm questioning the lack of "common sense" I am surrounded by?  Youngest daughter (13) gets sent home early yesterday from school, coughing and hacking....I get there to pick her up and I'm told, "we've already signed her out, she can go"....oh cool okay, thanks.  So we come home and mom kicks into "nurse mode".  Tea, toast, medicine--pj's and bed....

Now you would think that because they signed her out yesterday and were witness to the hacking and coughing...perhaps--just perhaps they'd realize she's NOT going to be back in school for a couple of days.....????  NAH--It's my job to call her off and inform them that "yes indeed she is still not well".  I don't know, tolerating "stupid, passin the buck and lack of common sense" is just really irritating me in this cultural morph, I'm graced to live in.....  It is what it is...?*?* Home Schooling is starting to look REALLY good right about now!!

Well, I have learned that fear is False Evidence Appearing Real, in many ways.  It held me back from exercising courage in my teens and early twenties.  When I heard that there is 365 "fear nots" in the bible, and numerous other's whom have written about it's ability to stifle a life, I thought well there must be something of valuable wisdom in not having fear.....Perhaps it's not a "terrible" thing, but something one needs to come to understand for developing "courage", "faith", "choice & decision".

In my bed! :)

Victim mentality....within others.  I'm not sure that I will ever be able to accept as stated to me a few months ago, "that's just the way they bounce through life".  They oppress themselves, yet blame others and float the convenient river of denial. 

The best thing about anger is....... that it is a "normal emotion (energy in motion)".  Understanding its purpose is key.  Several have already stated that it's a warning sign that something is not right.  Even God has anger------I've learned its an energized boundary conflict, a secondary symptom to hurt or fear and motivating to "do something", even if it's just acknowledging the FEELINGS--about the circumstance or situations we face.  The quote below has helped me keep it in perspective:

The angry people are those people who are most afraid.
-Dr. Robert Anthony

People-Human beings making it more "difficult" than it is, defining it into things or ideals that it is not. A few wise people once said, "Love is a decision, not a feeling".

How the power of intention, can manifest the needs I am feeling overwhelmed with, but need to be met.